Week 69 - The missing pages...

When we witnessed the breakup of Dev and Sonakshi on that disastrous night, we were all devastated, because, Dev and Sona shared the most beautiful love story with us ❤️ The love story in which we got to see both of them go against all odds to come together, in which both of them complimented each other, in which both of them made each other's bad days better and good days memorable and best. There was technically no worth reason for them to break up..and yet, they did.. And even before we could digest it, there was a seven year leap in our show and Sonakshi was shown with a daughter and Dev was shown as a man without any specific goals in life. We had a million questions in our head and we all even got divided into Team Dev and Team Sonakshi.. arguing about who was right and who was wrong. Each team argued with utmost conviction!  How can Sona hide the child from Dev? How can Dev expect Sona to let Suhana talk to him? It was all Dev's fault.. It was all Sona's fault.. How can Ishwari do this.. how can Bijoy do that.. and what not!! 😢

This week was the gateway to the answers for all those questions.. 😊 This week we have started to read those missing pages of this beautiful love story..the pages that were filled with anger, hurt, sadness, guilt and everything else that took away the peace from these two honest lovers 💔

The week started on a beautiful note of Dev and Sona reminiscing the magical moment they just experienced, the magical togetherness they just felt. They both never thought such a moment will come again in their life. But it came and this time, it seems to me that it will be "forever..and beyond". "Mrs.Dixit" - Dev, Sona and both their families enjoyed this title wholeheartedly and thats what gave me the confidence that the happy times are here to stay forever.❤️😊

Now that we know that all is well and the love story is back in track, it will be less sorrowful to flip through the missing pages... 

The main page that was missing from Dev's side of story was the birth of Suhana. Dev always loved Sonakshi as a woman, and he never wanted the infertility to affect their love story in any way. He did not leave any opportunity to ensure Sonakshi of his abundant love and care. If at all he wanted a child, he only wanted it so that Sonakshi will feel complete.  When their love story tragically ended, he would have never thought that Sonakshi will become a mother. Had he known, he would have handled everything differently. He is not the kind of man who would let his wife carry the burden of "their" offspring single handedly 😢 However, fate separated them and  Sonakshi did have to suffer as a single parent for seven years 😢

Similarly, the main page that was missing from Sona's side of their love story was the fact that Dev was almost paralyzed and became powerless and directionless in Sonakshi's absence. The tragic part about this was that Sonakshi was not at all aware that Dev will become so powerless in her absence...Had she known she would have never ever left him, come what may 😢 However, fate separated them and Dev went through a helpless lonely phase 😢

The makers have done a fabulous job of filling in the missing pages to Dev and Sona from each other's angles!!

Whenever I get upset with my husband and our arguments go on for a long time without any closure, I often find myself sit and write out an email with extreme anger. Once I do that, my outrage will definitely reduce. When that calmness sets in, I will just delete it and carry on..or probably save in drafts for review later!! I just checked and I still have a couple of those angry emails in my draft.. Many times I feel Sonakshi is very much like me 😊

Shaheer as Dev once again, has acted phenomenally well as the guilty husband, who just read those missing pages from his life and realized the impact of his absence in his wife's life... 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👌🏻👌🏻

We live in an era where our work and social life have taken over our personal life. Many husbands who live in the same house as their wife, don't necessarily take part in the pregnancy of their wife. Nor do they give a hand in the upbringing of their children. However, here is Dev.. He wanted to read and feel all the hatred that Sonakshi felt for him during those days. He wanted to go to the hospital where his wife delivered his daughter. He wanted to dwell in the guilt and blame himself as an irresponsible man for what happened seven years ago without even his knowledge... for not being there for his wife when she needed him the most...Dev is a man to look up to 🙏🏼❤️

The guilt of Dev drove him totally helpless, unable to undo any of the damage that he did to his dear wife. Again, the makers have wonderfully conceived the hospital scene where Dev imaginarily fixes himself in one of Sonakshi's hospital visit.. A very heart wrenching scene wonderfully done by Shaheer 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 The guilt made him run from pillar to post looking for that one thing that might give him some peace.. His visit to the Bose house was heartwarming and am sure it changed Bijoy's perceptions about Dev.

Its very questionable, whether a person like Dev exists in today's world. We can only hope!

While going through these missing pages of the past, the makers have also done a fabulous job in conceiving the present hesitation from Dev's side to take any first step towards getting closer to Sonakshi 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 We know the romantic Dev for more than a year now and he has never felt uncomfortable or uneasy with her ever. However, the guilt that he has now, gives him a lot of hesitation in taking that first step.. Its a very natural feeling and 100% marks to the makers for showing this and not showing a filmy closeness and romance just because now they have expressed their love for each other. I would like the closeness to come naturally.. after all... tiny Mr.Abhodro has to be very special... right from the making..isnt it? 💑❤️

How does Sonakshi feel about Dev's guilt? The moment she knew that Dev saw those emails in draft, she only gave her friendly supportive hand and tried to trivialize the whole thing... I really liked how Dev insisted that he read those emails. My husband would never insist like that. He would be happy to not know what I wrote. But I will also never be as friendly as Sonakshi. I will make sure he reads that specific line and point it out to him saying "Read this..this part.. this is exactly how I felt that day, when you said the coffee I made was not nice.." 🤓😂😂 Oh Well!! Dev and Sona are too perfect to exist in reality! We can only hope and try to be like them.

Sonakshi also wanted to know all about Dev's life in those seven years. It was beautiful to see Dev brush aside her request. Only a strong man will be able to take ownership for his mistakes without indulging in his own losses.🤗

There is a very important truth about Men that we all need to know. Men are the weaker of the two genders. Weaker because, they easily let their weaknesses overpower them. They almost have zero power to fight against their weakness. The one person they truly love is their strength and in the absence of that person, they absolutely cannot perform. Women, on the other hand have a fighting spirit which gets much stronger in the absence of who they consider as their strength.. In fact, when our man is around us, we generally tend to lean on him and feel at ease and let him take care of us and pamper us. But in his absence, we take up the ownership and try to perform much better..

Dev had felt clueless, weak and almost paralyzed in Sonakshi's absence. He could not do even what he did before Sona came in his life. I vividly remember the time of Sonakshi's engagement with Ritvik and how Dev expressed that he wanted to die but could not do so..because of his responsibilities as a brother and son and begged Sonakshi to be with him and guide him. However successful a man is, he is an extremely weak person in the absence of his woman. Sonakshi made a promise that she will never leave him, but she did. Whether the Sonakshi supporters like it or not, she made a mistake by leaving him behind. She should have known that Dev is powerless without her. 😢

But, because Sonakshi is basically a good person, she relentlessly tried to find about all the missing pages from her love story.. all about Dev during those seven years. She went to Ishwari, then to Eleena and then to Dev himself and insisted that she know everything about his sisters. It did not surprise me that Dev's life became pointless in Sonakshi's absence. However, he ignoring his sisters definitely surprised me. Why would he do that? Pondering on that topic made me realize that with his every sister's saved life, lies Sonakshi's goodness. Whether it was saving Nikki from drunkards or Ria from the wicked Ayaan.. Sonakshi had a huge role to play. And Neha's wedding probably brought even fonder but now haunting memories of him and Sonakshi, so he chose to stay away from it. Well.. even though men are grown up adults, their success lies only on the women behind them. 

It was only after Sonakshi heard from Dev, was she able to realize the amount of damage she has indirectly caused to his entire family. The dependency that Dev had on her dawned on her only in that instant..Dev probably cannot go into past and make up for the missing pages of his life which had the birth of Suhana.. but Sonakshi might still be able to do some damage control in Dev's life and his family.. However she needs to be very careful in handling this.

The identity of Sonakshi is, to do the "right" things and to make the things "right".  Thats why, as soon as she came back in Dev's life, she thought about Nisha and explained to Dev that they owed an apology for her! Sometimes, Sonakshi's ways of setting things right work favorably.. However, sometimes it backfires. Like the time she tried to somehow get Neha and Ranvir back together.. It only caused more strain to their already strained relationship. Similarly when Dev and Sona broke up, the same urge of Sonakshi to set the things right for the Bose family triggered the whole misunderstanding and unpleasant arguments. Not that she shouldn't have supported her family. But, she could have done it differently, taking Dev also on her side. 

I somehow feel, this time also, she is being too hasty in right away plunging into the Dixit sisters' family matters and setting everything right without the knowledge of others... Somehow I feel her coming back to the Dixit home itself was a hasty decision to somehow set everything right between them and the sisters. And her way of handling the keys also did not seem right to me..As Ishwari pointed out, she could have spoken to Ishwari before giving the keys to GKB. She should have definitely asked Ishwari and/or  Dev before contacting Ria on her own. I hope this is one of those times when Sonakshi's plans work favorably for everyone 😞

Talking about Ishwari - She did the right things this week. 
- Her genuine heartfelt happiness in seeing a happy and content Dev was something I had been longing for. As a mother, I had always questioned her inability to feel happy for her son. And finally I felt that satisfaction. 
- Her visit to the Bose family to ask for Sonakshi's hand again not just for her son as his wife but also for herself as her friend was also a very satisfying moment for me. Just like Asha, I am sure all mothers of daughters would have felt their eyes getting wet. 
- At the same time, her efforts to make Exotic Avocado Salad brought a smile on my face 😁 
- Her interactions with GKB were perfect! I wish she had so much confidence in her son and his choice of Sonakshi many years ago... And I hope that this confidence and clarity that she now has, is here to stay forever.

Similarly, Bijoy also did the right things this week. After a long time, the elders are finally becoming a positive source of energy! 
- Bijoy's warm welcome to Dev in the beginning of the week and his wish for good luck uplifted our moods. It was a perfect comparison of native place to your life prior to marriage and the place we migrate to, for the sake of job, to our life after marriage!! 👌🏻👌🏻
- He also gave Dev a very valuable advice to become each other's strength and not weakness.. 
- The best part between Dev and Bijoy was the part where Bijoy acknowledged that Dev was best and Dev acknowledged that Dev can only look up to Bijoy. 

The flavor the kids brought in made the show more interesting this week. I am sure parents often get stumped by their kids' questions.. 
- What is "Propose"?? 😲
- Iss room me kyoon itna decorations hain? Kyoon big chi hass rani hain??
Kids, especially these days are very inquisitive and its hard to explain many things to them!! 😲😉

The dialogues as usual is another hero in the show!
- The scene where Ishwari compared Dev as dabba and his love as the biscuit inside.. was classic 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 The tug of war between Ishwari and GKB for the dabba was a perfect comparison of the war that happened seven years ago, between Sonakshi and Ishwari..👌🏻👌🏻
- The scene where Dev told Sonakshi that he wants to read all the emails was also another highlight!! "kya kya delete karoghe? yahaan se delete kar sakti ho, par apne dil se delete nahi kar sakti ho na..."👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻

The lead characters definitely stole the show this week! 
- Shaheer's excellent portrayal of his own guilt and his protectiveness for Sonakshi both must be applauded. His dialogues are always pitch perfect.. His body language and emotions are always bang on!!👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
- Erica's reactions while Dev was explaining his setbacks in the absence of Sonakshi was perfect. Without dialogues, she easily conveyed her deep regret.👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

There were lot of promises made this week... 
Dev promised Bijoy that he will try his best to not disappoint him.
Sona promised Dev that she will henceforth walk with him and support him during his moments of weakness..
Ishwari promised sonakshi that she will consider Sonakshi as her own daughter and not a daughter in law.
I hope all these promises are kept by everyone.😊

Week 68 - The RE(al)-UNION

Marriage is not just a union of two hearts or a union of two lives, but its the union of two families. In a recent wedding I attended, I saw a sign that said "Today, two families are becoming one. Please pick a seat not a side".  That signboard was the talk of that day, than even the bride and groom. It is very true, though. Every marriage is a union of two families. Dev and Sonakshi started their love story many years ago.. They broke up because Dev was not sure. They reunited due to their inability to move on. Although they all seemed happy, there was a lot of hesitation for their families to unite.. Therefore, their Re-Union became a Reluctant-Union.. And they broke up again because their families were not ready and they themselves were probably not ready. And now, after many years and a beautiful daughter, they are together again. This union is "Real".. There is no Reluctance or Remorse or Rush.. Its Natural, Real and its the union of their families . So this will be strong, sturdy, heavy duty and unshakable!! ❤️

The Reunion already started after Ishwari accepted Sonakshi and her family with her whole heart. And with Sonakshi's changes, this week became an even more interesting week for me. I had my highs and lows, because I ALWAYS watch the show from Dev's point of view. I love Sonakshi very deeply but I also get angry with her all the time just like Dev. It was interesting to see the iron lady of our show, Sonakshi, slowly turning into a beautiful flower that she was, at the beginning of the show when she stole our and Dev's heart. But it was not easy for her at all. It took the efforts of many people, to get over her fears and realize her destiny.

The loneliness and pain that Sonakshi suffered all the seven years had turned her heart into a rock. But that was only one part of it.  Sonakshi's fears were probably because of Ishwari and I am sure these words of Dev surely kept Ishwari wondering about what she can do to help Sonakshi get over it.  Since Ishwari already asked for forgiveness during the dinner in Dev's house.. I thought there was nothing new that she was going to say to Sonakshi. But as she started explaining how much she missed Sonakshi and how much she had taken her for granted, I couldn't help but cry. Supriya is an extremely talented artist and she stole the show on monday. 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 

Just those 5 to 10 mins of her conversation with Sonakshi probably cannot make up for all the cruel things she did earlier. However those few minutes of genuineness was enough to shatter Sona's fears and get back into her heart. What I really liked about Ishwari's apology that day was the part about "Saheli". During the days when Sona was Ishwari's nutritionist, they were both pretty much like friends.  Even amidst GKB's taunts, these two somehow hit it off! It was a pleasant reference of those days with the word "Saheli". I also loved the part when she said "Us din Ishwari tumse maafi maangi thi.. aaj Dev ki maa tujse maafi maang rahi hain" - I was reminded of Ishwari's conversation with maama ji - when she said "When I am Ishwari, I am able to see her goodness..but when I am Dev's mom, I am unable to, because of my fears". Today, even as Dev's mom, she was able to accept Sonakshi not just as her son's wife, but also as her daughter in law and as her "Saheli".  Even though Sonakshi married Dev before, she was never able to become his better half and take responsibility of his family, because his mom never accepted her.  This time Ishwari has accepted her and so, this union is Real and not in a rush and definitely not forced. 

Ishwari's open conversation, I am sure instantly changed Sonakshi's fears into affection and love. However, she had put way too many fences around her to protect herself from getting hurt anymore. And because of that, she was unable to heed to Ishwari's request to go stop Dev's engagement.

A father protects his daughter, probably till the last second of his life on earth. Every daughter in this world will probably accept to this statement. My father is not someone who openly comes and tells me how much he likes me. But  I know all the million things he does for me even without my knowledge. Every time I visit my parents, right from buying my favorite vegetable and instructing my mom to do it in a way that I like to the financial security he has built with his little pension keeping me in mind (even though I am happily married and settled), there are a million things he does for me all the time.. and for that matter any father does for his daughter. A daughter's marriage does not sever the bond between a dad and his daughter. And when the daughter has had a failed marriage, any father will take it upon him to protect his daughter from the man that made her cry. Sonakshi was let down by the same man.. not just once, but twice. But thankfully, Ishwari's timely advice and Asha's timely intervention highlighting his inability to look beyond his fears and ego hit the right chord with Bijoy and he realized that the Dixits were genuine this time.

When I look at it from Sonakshi's point of view, I am still unable to accept that she needed Bijoy to give her a green signal to go to the love of her life, Dev. It definitely put me off.  However, on introspection and from Bijoy's point of view, I am convinced that, that approval was absolutely necessary. I realized that a dad's fear..Bijoy's fear, was not baseless. His repulsion for Dev was not insensible. His promise from Sonakshi was not unnecessary. Bijoy should let her go, only when he feels that she will be safe. Last time as well, Sonakshi did get Bijoy's approval before going to Dev. But last time, it seemed more of a compromise from Bijoy's point of view. However, this time Bijoy is convinced. And thats why this union is "Real" and not a "Reluctant" one.

While Sonakshi was going through this change, Dev was going through a torture to simply put it.  Shaheer is an actor who will magically brighten the screen whenever he is present in it. Even his stressed out emotions and angry expressions somehow attracts us in a way no one else does. When he is present everything around fades out. We see Dev and only Dev. I don't know whether it was because of this or whether it was because of our unattachment to any girl other than Sonakshi with Dev, I did not even realize that he took Payal's name instead of Nisha... until Eleena corrected him..

Nisha is a girl with clear intentions, just like Rithvik (who was going to get engaged to Sona long ago). Nisha did not take anything for granted and had made sure that Dev and Sonakshi were not having any plans of getting back together. However, on the day of engagement, his restlessness to somehow see Sonakshi at the doorstep created a clear disturbance to Nisha's peace. I really loved the way, the makers conceived the whole engagement scene from Nisha's angle. And I must give it to Nisha. Her dialogue delivery was excellent. I have not seen this actress before, but she was awesome!👏🏻👏🏻 The makers always choose the actors without any compromise. Even if the role is tiny, every actor that have taken part in our show are skilled in some way or the other! 👌🏻👌🏻

The dialogue writers of this show need a fitting appreciation with some award and I hope they get good recognition for the work they do in KRPKAB. Dev's description of Sonakshi was honest.. by far the best way you can define honesty. He said Sonakshi was like a good habit for him.."Aadat acha ya boora, aadat nahi hona chahiye..par Sonakshi ki aas paas mein rehna kisi ko boora nahi ho sakta". He defined Sonakshi in a nutshell. He basically said that Sonakshi made it all easy for him. And the content of what else he told Nisha was intelligently added by the makers in her conversation with Sonakshi later.👏🏻👏🏻

Nisha probably already realized that this engagement was probably not going anywhere and Sonakshi's arrival only confirmed it! Dev quickly loosened up and became a little relaxed. His conversation with Eleena was proof that when Sonakshi is around, Dev somehow feels at home. However, I also liked how he clearly indicated to Eleena that it will be only Sonakshi's decision and that he was prepared for an unhappy ending for his love story.

Sonakshi came to Dev's engagement probably with an intention of telling him that she loved him and that he should call off the engagement. But when she saw that the engagement was really happening, she, being a person that is not selfish at all, could only walk into it in Nisha's shoes. She did not have the courage to call off the engagement, nor did she have the heart to watch all that was happening there.

I really loved Ishwari's persistence to somehow get into the deep fears of Sonakshi and remove it once for all.. It was as though she didn't want to leave any stones unturned at all. Her promise to Sonakshi that whatever she said before in her house was the ultimate truth of her heart in the name of her son Dev - was the most honest confession anyone could ever make. And beyond this Ishwari couldn't do anything else to affirm Sonakshi that she will not anymore hinder the happiness of Dev and Sona.

After this incident, I really could not understand why Sonakshi was holding back. The only reason is to not hurt Nisha.

I think Nisha was also waiting impatiently for Sonakshi, especially after hearing all about her from Dev himself. And once Sona arrived, she was very keen to talk to her. The quick interaction in Dev's room only increased Nisha's need to talk to Sonakshi. She was on a mission to make Sona talk that day and for that, I will be ever so grateful to Nisha! Her scene in the garden with Sonakshi was the highlight of this week, according to me. That was the real realization of Sonakshi. In Sonakshi's own words Dev's happiness, even though he was a successful and rich businessman, lied only in spending time with family.

N: "Kya gift dhoon Dev ko"
S: "Uske paas tho sab kuch hain, jo paison se kareeda ja saktha hain.."
N: "tho phir.. kyaa dhoon..."
S: "ache yadhein, experiences, bathein..."
N: "Bathein???"
S: "Dev ke liye..paise important nahi hain..paison se woh impress nahi hota..achi bathon se hota hain..uske liye family sab kuch hain..Party time matlab family time hain.. woh bahar walon ko zaroor entertain kar saktha hain..par woh jaldi thak jaata hain.. par family ke saath 100% rahta hain... agar tum usse hasa sakthe ho..rula sakthe ho..tumhari bachpan ki yadhein share kar sakthe ho.. tho woh bahot kush hoga...uske liye 5 star hotel ka chai pasand nahin hain.. tupri wali ka chai bahot pasand hain..wohi meri taraf se uske liye best gift tha..."

And as Sona completed these words, she just defined Dev as the "Perfect" man any woman would ever want.. Nisha's expressions slowly started changing to more than just a disappointment that her engagement was not going to happen that day. It became more of an interrogation to Sona, almost asking her "Then, why the hell are you not together with him!!" she went on to ask...

N: "Tho tum kehna chahthi hain ki Dev perfect hain..par usne kaha ki woh perfect husband nahi te..bahut galathiyan karthe te..tum usse mamma's boy bulati thi.. woh tumko kabhi ache se treat nahi kiya..woh ziddi aur selfish te.."

At this point, I think Sonakshi magically answered all the questions of her own heart and almost got over all her fears..

S: "Galati meri thi..Meine socha ki mein sab kuch handle kar sakti hoon..par nahi kar payi..woh toh har situation ko ache se handle kar raha tha.. maa ki baat maan ne se kya galat hain..muje samajna chahiye thi... woh meri ya kisi bhi aurat ko hurt nahi kar sakta..woh mujhe meri saari kamzoriyon ke saath pyaar kiya... He was the best thing that ever happened to me..." ❤️

Even though we had a beautiful reunion of DevAkshi on friday, this sequence stood out for me, as it was the real essence of Sonakshi's love for Dev. Excellent dialogues!! 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻❤️❤️  I wish he heard it all...

Nisha's questions to Dev and Sonakshi later were to the point and there was no beating around the bush. For any other TV serial, this is the best place to prolong it for another day with dramatic music and close up shots of every single character of the show.. KRPKAB is unique in many ways and its narration style is one of its biggest pluses. There is no unnecessary drag in the show.

Well, Dev was cornered. He wanted Sonakshi to confess this time around.. But when he was directly asked that question of whether he loves Sonakshi anymore, he said Yes without guilt, without fear, without doubt. Love is always like that. Its there or its not there.. There is never an intermediate state. Haan ya Na. But somehow, even though Sonakshi confessed so much to Nisha, she could not open up to Dev even after Nisha called off the engagement.. I think she immediately got into a zone of "Guilt"... That she can never ever get back her Dev... because she lost him forever due to her own carelessness and inability to see how perfect he was... Dev was still in love with only Sonakshi and hearing that only added to her guilt. All she could tell Dev was "I am sorry Dev.. I didn't know all this will happen.. I am so sorry that the engagement was called off.."!!

Dev's reaction to this was perfect!! What more can he talk to this woman Sonakshi who felt guilty..when she had to actually feel happy that his engagement was called off..

Dev the lover was hurt deeply.. but that does not negate the fact that he is a father now. Often times, for kids' sake we have to give in. However, he was unable to stay there any longer even for Suhana's sake, because the feeling of "not being loved" is the most hurtful of all feelings 😢. I loved how Suhana came running to her dad as he was ready to walk away.. But the little girl could not do anything to stop her dad..

Dev is a guy who has all along nurtured every member of his family. He worked hard and sacrificed his own childhood and youth, so that his family can live comfortably. He loved his wife deeply, but was unable to keep her for himself. He respected and loved his mother very dearly, but was unable to keep her happy either. He lived in hell all these years and finally there was a ray of light in his life in the form of his daughter.. With her around, positivity came back in his life and he thought he will be able to get back all that he lost.. However, he was wrong. He was not able to convince Sonakshi enough, so that she can choose him. A man that lived for others all these days, wanted to somehow get happiness for himself, but failed to do it. This deep pain came through when he spoke to Suhana on phone and asked her to take care of herself, as he will not be around for sometime. I don't know about others, but this was a very heartbreaking scene for me.😢

Sonakshi didn't mean to hurt him so deeply. She did not know what to do at that moment. Even though Ishwari mentioned to her that Dev is doing all this purposely to make Sona choose him, she just could not get herself to tell him that she loves him a lot. We cannot question why she was not able to.. For every person, Love is something that needs its own correct moment to be expressed. And when that correct moment comes, nothing can stop it from being expressed. It can be at midnight, in the middle of the road or during a rainy night in an autorickshaw..anything will work.. just anything..😄 By the way, auto rickshaw, rain, night are all very special in my love story as well. So, KRPKAB is super close to my heart!! ❤️

Nutritionist, daughter, mother, sister, businesswoman.. everyone had taken a backseat. The girl that was steering her life that night was Sonakshi who was madly in love with her prince charming, Dev. The makers had wonderfully conceived that carefree, crazy, flirtatious lover girl Sonakshi. Even when she was secretly admiring him during the good old Natasha days, she never set herself sooo free.. She always had her own identity.. But this Sonakshi was real, with only one identity for herself and that is - she loves Dev immensely. ❤️

Sonakshi went down on her knees to express how sorry she feels that she failed to wake up with him everyday all these 7 years and how guilty she feels for running away from her real emotions.. They exchanged rings and shared a lovely dance together and hugged one more time with a promise in their mind to never let go of each other.. And thus that night Dev and Sonakshi united again in a magical way. ❤️

And I thought.. the story will end on a beautiful note of "Dev and Sonakshi lived happily ever after..". However, the makers seem to have much more up their sleeve!! And I cant wait to watch it! 😄😍

Some of the very nice sequences this week:
1. Golu and Soha - I have become a great fan of these two kids.. They are as cute as "cute" can get!! Hiding the ring, their interaction with Sonakshi, and later their heartfelt apology to Nisha were all done so perfectly.. Even many adult actors may not be able to execute the job given, so flawlessly!! Their voice modulation, body language and facial expressions were all perfect!😘😘👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

2. Erica's conversation with Ishwari, Nisha and the finale with Dev were all extremely well done! Erica's strength is her underplay of emotions. Especially in her scene wth Nisha and Ishwari, this strength of hers helped the scene a lot to stand out!!👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

3. Ishwari's honest confessions, expressions of heartfelt guilt and deep desires were all so aptly done. I cannot think of any other actress to fit in that role with such ease! I loved all her dialogues this week, especially the one she told Sonakshi about "tum mujhe kya kehker bulaoge.. usse mein samaj jaoongi ki tum yahan kya karne keliye aayi ho".. Ishwari's advce to Bijoy was also very aptly done!! 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👍🏻👌🏻

4. For Shaheer, I don't know where to start my appreciation and where to end it!! He was excellent this week as the restless lover, waiting for his love Sonakshi not just to reach his house for engagement but to reach his heart as his wife again..Emotions were so aptly done and the dialogues were delivered to such pitch perfection. 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👍🏻👌🏻🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

5. The dialogues of this show should be praised to the skies and back! They are completely out of the world and the class is something I have not seen even in great movies! They are simple, crisp, and extremely captivating. Three cheers to the dialogue writers for an outstanding work!!👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻🌟🌟🌟

Mrs.Dixit is all set to come back to the Dixit family with abundant joy, happiness and most importantly, conviction... My prediction is that, "Iss show mein, ab se, sirf khushiyaan hogi.. pehle se behethar hoga.."  😄

Week 67 - Love ❤️❤️

Love is an unconditional commitment to a completely imperfect person. Its a decision we make, to accept a person in our heart with all his imperfections. All other emotions are conditional, except Love. Thats why when Love fails based on some conditions and exceptions, it ceases to exist. Love exists only in a heart which has no rule and no conditions.

Although the show is all about Love, I can call this week as the real essence of the "Love" of DevAkshi. Day after day, we witnessed the different facets of their Love. There cannot be a better week to analyze this topic of Love. ❤️

Love is Friendship

To be in Love is lot of fun..because we usually start off as friends first! Post leap, Dev and Sona have been in Friend zone for a while now. Although "friend" zone is much better than the "Mujhe farak nahi padtha" zone, Dev has been longing for a while now, to be out of this zone and become husband and wife again. In the "Payal" game, Sonakshi is just a friend... Dev used this to his advantage and instigated Sonakshi as much as possible with a "Buddy" touch!! "You are always a kid" by Sona was countered aptly with "Yes, I am.. a kid who needs a lot of Love" by Dev. It was so much fun for us to see this "non-gentle" man Dev :) There were a couple of "friendly" car scenes this week which made us all get some pain in our cheeks due to excessive grin. 😁

D: "May be got heated up... I mean.. car.. No?"
S: "I will know if its heated up"
D: "Ohh..then May be angry? It happens...No? then what else?"

S: "You traitor!"
D: "What?"
S: "I mean car.. its mine, and still it cheated me"

S: "Wait.. I know.. I can open the door myself.. Ok buddy!"
D: "Wow! you understood so quickly yaar"

Now that Shaheer and Erica are well into the skin of the characters, I could see that there are probably many many instantaneous improvisations..like Sona slamming the car door angrily.. or Dev giving Sona a gentle fist punch with a "Ok Buddy!" These two actors have excellent comic timing!! Who can forget the snake episode!! And this week, the first couple of days were pretty hilarious!! The "Buddy" touch went on for the second girl in line too..As time went by, the touch became stronger..or Sona became weaker in her knees? 

By the way, Nisha, Jisha, Payal..whoever comes, I hope they all got a return ticket as well.. No-one can come between these two best friends Dev and Sonakshi!

There is a point in a relationship when Friendship turns to something much more intimate and then there is no covering up with the fancy word "Friend".. Dev and Sonakshi have been very passionate lovers from the beginning..How long can they stop themselves?

Love is Passion

There is a saying that "Do anything with Passion or Don't do it at all".. I would say that there are way too many mediocre things in this world which are done with half heart and Love is not one of them. Dev and Sonakshi are a couple with very deep love and their love for each other has always been very passionate and intimate.. For them, the average "We are also leading our daily life as usual" phrase does not suit. Every day is special for them as long as they are together. Because of the current situation that they are in, they went through a roller coaster of emotions this week, in spite of the fact that they are not couple now... And of all emotions, their passion for each other kept haunting them..

Who said romantic scenes have to be shown at the cost of a feeling of uneasiness for the audience? Shaheer and Erica share such a marvelous chemistry that they being together in a scene by itself has become a content day for the fans. And yet, who would not want to see some sizzling romantic scenes? Inspite of the "Buddy" zone they are in, Sonakshi could not stop herself from getting lost in the handsomeness of Dev. And Dev did not fail to notice it. "Everyone downstairs are having a shirt..and you haven't worn your wait yet?"..Oh well..it sounds better in  hindi :) You know which scene I mean :) Dev was irresistible for Sonakshi. I would still applaud her self control that moment, for not confessing how much she had missed him all these years.. As if the mesmerizing was not enough, Dev even attempted to adjust her hair behind her ears and adjusted her ear rings.. Sigh!! 😄😍❤️

Passion in Love should not die even after you have grand children. If you let it die, you will just become a walking and talking machine. For Dev and Sonakshi, every touch is familiar..every hold is ever so comfortable..every look is irresistible. Their passion for each other is not just alive..its strong, intense, mutual and irresistibly beautiful.

Would Sonakshi want to give up this special bond that she has with Dev to someone else? As a trailer..she got to witness Nisha in Dev's arms.. I won't wish anything bad for Nisha..let her have a good life.. but please...she does not look good in Dev's arms.. 😢

I am a Dev fan. No doubt.. But hey Dev, "how dare you try to wear that gajra on Nisha's hair?" You better be prepared with proper explanation to us, after everything falls in place with you and Sonakshi. Good job, Sona, for making sure the gajra doesn't reach Nisha's hair 💪🏼😏 Gajra is a special thing only between Dev and Sonakshi.❤️

Love is Understanding

Sonakshi understands Dev inside out. She knows his strengths and his weaknesses. Dev knows all about Sonakshi. This understanding has been there between this couple even many years ago. Who can forget the time when Sonakshi supported Dev when they had to cancel their honeymoon due to Neha's failed marriage. And Dev is no less. He completely hid the doctor report from Sonakshi, because he knew that she will take it upon her and even go to the extent of calling off the wedding. 

And after so many years, their understanding of each other was still in tact. Sonakshi always knew about Dev's tricks and games. She found out pretty quickly that the whole Payal-boyfriend-reunion was a drama staged by Dev Dixit. Its not that Dev wouldn't have guessed that Sona will find it out... Because he knew her inside out as well.. Even though, they are not together anymore, ever since they have started to share the friendly equation, I think they themselves often forget that they are not a couple anymore, because of the immense understanding they have.. Though a very subtle and inconsequential scene, this feeling came through, when Nisha came back for her purse and Dev by default called Sonakshi to give it to her..  

Ishwari was always proud that she understands her son more than anyone else. But this week, the changed mother gave credit to the wife that she understands him more.. Its not a miracle when a mother understands her child. The child has been with the mom ever since he/she first came into this world. So, there is nothing great in a Mom-Son's understanding. However, a wife is not related at all.. And yet, the degree of Understanding any loving couple share is definitely miraculous to me... ❤️

Love is Perseverance

We got to witness tremendous perseverance from Dev to somehow get back his lost love. After Sonakshi supposedly convinced Dev to marry some girl, Dev decided that he will somehow make Sonakshi realize that her love for Dev has not changed at all. When he decided that, he was ready to go to any extent to make this happen. And was doing all that he could do, to instigate her.. from cornering her in a friend zone, questioning her interference between him and Nisha, trying to recreate the gajra scene, taking her with him and his fiancé everywhere.. and what not! He even got Suhana and Golu on his side to call Nisha as the new mamma!  😄

Where there is Love, there will be perseverance. So, Dev's such actions did not surprise me. However, his opening up to his mother during several occasions this week, definitely surprised me. I really liked how he told Ishwari confidently that if he needs happiness in his life (which usually comes only as a guest to him), he has to take control of his life and attain whatever he needs. I also liked how he told Sonakshi and Ishwari, after the Payal breakup that however difficult the path is, he is not going to stop until he reaches his goal! My sincere wish is that, his perseverance should bear a fruit.. 🙏🏼

Love is Courage

My marriage is a classic 1990s love story. 1990 was the time when love stories had endings other than eloping or suicides. And mine was one such, that saw the light! It was not easy. Coming from a conservative family, I had never spoken a word against my dad. I didn't have the courage to ask permission to go for shopping or a movie with friends, even when I was in college. And yet, my marriage was an inter-community love marriage of the 90s..and that too, it  happened with the blessings of our parents. How was it possible? The answer is "Courage". If you want your love story to become a fairy tale, you gotta have a little courage.. 

But the "Courage" that Dev was talking about this week is not a simple one time "Courage". Remember how Dev asked Sona - "I am a complicated man.. Are you ready to take on this life with me?" Remember how Sona said "I will never leave you.. Even if you leave me, I will not leave you". The courage he spoke about was this - To carry on their life, with courage and not be fearful of what will happen when things don't work...

Sonakshi is probably afraid of having to face the same situation and get hurt the way she did 7 years ago. Sonakshi is probably afraid to express her love for Dev, because it had been extremely difficult to let go of him..and she cannot do it all over again. She is probably even more afraid that it will become difficult for Suhana now. She probably thought in the last 7 years that her love for Dev had long died and that she will never feel this way for him. And now she is scared that she feels this way. She is also scared of hurting her father.

However, if we need a rainbow, we must put up with rain. Dev being a complicated man is not a hidden fact. And she striving for perfection is also not a hidden fact. They signed up for this life, knowing all that. If their love is strong enough, it will get the courage to survive in every situation and not succumb to those situations. ❤️💏

Love is Loyal

Need I even say that this couple is very loyal to each other? However, the people around them got a little bit of a jerk when Sonakshi convinced Dev to marry again and Dev went on in full speed to look at girls and finalize in a single meet up! They started questioning in their mind about the couple's loyalty. Ishwari banked on this quality of Love of "Loyalty", when she chose the plan of action of getting a 3rd person between them. She thought that if a 3rd person comes between them, they won't be able to resist their love for each other. But Dev's decisions to move on shook her a lot! Her discussion with Asha to somehow make Sonakshi take one step towards Dev was a very interesting one. Asha sticking to her principle of not interfering in Sonakshi's decisions only increased my respect for her. Ishwari is always an impulsive person.. After all, Dev's quality of impulsiveness is inherited from his mom. The mothers definitely knew that their children loved each other dearly which was why they could not accept that Dev was ready to marry another girl. 

But I really hated Bijoy, for celebrating his daughter's hurt emotions.. well, he was technically celebrating that Dev was ready to leave Sona forever.. However, I don't know why he failed to see that Sonakshi is not happy about it. He never accepted that Sonakshi loved Dev.. thats why, he could never understand or acknowledge how Loyal her love is for Dev.. Hope he will realize this one day. 

In another beautiful scene this week, Dev explained to Suhana that he will never marry anyone else. Kids may not understand the word "Loyal" yet.. But, they do understand the phrase "Ours and only ours". The makers have once again conceived it so nicely from Suhana's point of view.. Her explanation to Sonakshi that they won't like it if papa marries someone else was the crux of the "possessiveness" that Sonakshi felt.

In yet another beautiful scene, Dev himself told to a sleeping Sonakshi (Or may be she heard it all?) that he feels the same Love for her that he had always felt and begged her to stop him from getting engaged to another girl.. It was a very special scene for us because, Shaheer's husky voice and apt emotions elevated that scene to a different level 😲👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻❤️ 😄😍

Love is Forever

If there is one thing in this world for which we can use the word "Forever", then its only Love. The promises we make during the wedding, might be seen as a ceremonial exercise by some people. But the reality is that those promises are made with an intention of never ever breaking it. In one of the best scenes this week, Dev assertively told Sonakshi "Tum aakhri pal tak mere saath dhoongi" Even though she could technically take it as if he meant "till the wedding", she and all of us very well knew that he meant "Forever".

Couple who get divorced almost always have a reason of justification. Its probably valid in some cases too.. But if you ask me, I will only say that, if you were not sure, why did you get into the relationship? A neighbour of mine who has 2 beautiful daughters, got divorced and on her way out of our complex, she gave me a free advice.. She said "We women have to put up with so much of crap from these men.. you should never get stuck with such men".. I thought, she probably heard our (friendly) fights from my home (the walls in the apartments are very thin!! 😂).. thats why she was advising me.. We are a very loud family.. We express our love also loudly 😂😂 I quietly replied to her "You are right.. but they are also putting up with our crap.. We usually give tit-for-tat right away in our home... And I don't plan on releasing him from my torture in the near future".. You are allowed to even shout or throw things at each other, if the situation warrants..😂😂 but never leave each other... because, if its not Forever, it cannot be Love. ❤️

Love hurts

Pain is a small word for the amount of torture Sonakshi went through this week.. or for that matter Dev as well. I am sure he did not enjoy holding Nisha's hands or buying flowers for Payal. Of all the facets of Love, this was the most prominent one this week. Whether it was having to hear Dev say "I like this girl and I am ok with having the engagement tomorrow" or having to hear Sonakshi say "I am sure, we will never be together again".. they both went through a lot of pain. This is on top of their growing passion for each other that they had to resist. Atleast for Dev, he was purposely doing everything to win Sona. But, for Sonakshi, her bottled up emotions refused to find a way out. It was a wonderful scene where Sonakshi looked at Dev watching her from his room. It was as though they were trying to tell each other, not to hurt.. 💔💔😞

Ishwari's question to Sonakshi whether Nisha was worth to be called "Mrs. Dev Dixit" probably hurt her the most... Even her mother Asha could not make Sona open up to her.. Sona's outburst to Bijoy, though impulsive, was a much needed one for her. As a father, he may forever feel the need to protect his daughter and may even justify that whatever he is doing is only for Sonakshi's happiness. But, a little acknowledgement of her pain would have made Sonakshi open up to him. Whether Bijoy likes it or not, its a fact that Dev is still the only one that can cheer her up and make her smile, inspite of his infinite imperfections... 💔

Sonakshi's pain threshold is extremely high, which is why she is able to endure so much! I hope she lets go of her fears and expresses her unchanged love for Dev.

Love is Respect

Without Respect, Love is completely lost. 😒😢 Just because you love someone and you value the relationship more than anything, it does not mean that you can allow the other person to disrespect you. Dev and Sonakhsi's life also drifted apart, because of this lack of respect for each other's feelings. In another beautifully conceived scene, Dev spoke to Ishwari about Sonakshi's journey from a nutritionist to a daughter-in-law in their home and why Sonakshi is unable to come back to them now... He rightly said that she stayed alone all these years..because of the pain they gave her. Its probably because of that.. And he even went on to tell Ishwari that it was probably because of her, that Sona is unable to come back to their home. Sonakshi only wanted to win everyone's heart in that home..but he explained to Ishwari how they defeated her in that pursuit. Dev realized that its been his trait to play games and treat family members like a pawn... And this time, he wants to respect her feelings and he wants her to come to him on her own accord, without anybody's force. Will that happen? We have to wait and watch.

This blog has already become lengthy I think.. It is so hard to pick few best scenes this week.. but let me try to make this list as short as I can..

1. The post Payal-breakup scene. It was Shaheer's yet another wonderful performance this week, when he went on to explain Love and how it becomes one's strength as well as weakness and how a Love story becomes a Fairy tale. Awesome voice modulation and excellent body language, apart from the apt chemistry between Dev and Sonakshi. 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻❤️

2. The dialogue writers.. I don't know where to start and where to end. Whether it was a simple "Ok Buddy!" or a slightly complicated "Agar Fairy tales mein jeena hai tho..thoda himmat karni padegi.." it was a celebration of dialogues this whole week! Mama ji's comment that "Marriages don't happen between blood relation.." to Mami ji's wish "I should have married a monster" really cracked me up.. I was laughing long after the scene was over!! 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻

3. Dev's question to Sonakshi "Mera kya hoga Sonakshi...Mein tho akela reh gaya..Mujhe kab meri pasand ki ladki milegi?" was very touching and probably Dev tried to pour all his pain with that one dialogue.. 😒😢

4. Sonakshi's outburst to Bijoy - though it was a short scene, I think it brought out almost all of Sona's pain.😒😢 Erica did an excellent job in that scene and in all her other scenes with Shaheer. 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

5. Dev-Sonakshi's chemistry throughout this week made the audience go crazy! There were tons of poets on social media this week!! 💏

6. The kids added a very nice flavor to this week's episodes. The makers continue to do justice to "kids". I always loved the way they are handled in this show. This week will be one such, in which they don't cross any limits of the kid zone and continue to shine with their cuteness  😘😘

7. I have probably already mentioned above.. but the scene that stood out for me from the last episode was when Dev expressed how perfect Sonakshi is, even with her short hair and stupid glasses and confessed to Sona once again in his low, firm voice.. that his love for her in unchanged 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻❤️

Dev has been very persistent and has proved to Sonakshi that they both still share the same passion, understanding, respect, and friendship. I think he has been successful in making Sona realize that all these feelings are mutual. Will Sonakshi be able to get over her fears and accept her love for Dev? Will she be able to face the life ahead with courage and confidence? We will have to wait and watch.

Week 66 - Head vs Heart

Our brain has no heart and our heart has no brain. Thats why, when we speak our mind, we seem heartless and when we listen to our heart and do what it says, we often look like an idiot. Our show's tag line itself is "What happens..when we give the brain, the job of our heart?" This week there was a constant battle between the head and heart of our lead characters. Although, this time also, its orchestrated by Ishwari, there is a subtle change this time - Ishwari is now using her heart to manipulate Dev and Sonakshi... not her head like the previous times.

There is one more reason for me to like this changed Ishwari - She has become a coffee person, like me!!! "Shall we have coffee?", "I need a cup of coffee", "Shall we meet at the coffee shop?" - these statements have more meaning than just having coffee.. It means that there is request for a conversation.. its a request for a friendly hand.. its a request to clear out confusion in our mind.. Ishwari has started to "give regard" to Sonakshi. She did not bombard Sonakshi with her thoughts..but wanted to have a genuine conversation with her, over a cup of coffee.  Sonakshi and Ishwari's conversation was precise and to the point. The damage Ishwari has made to Dev and Sonakshi's life is not erasable or pardonable. Any amount of Sorry will just not be enough.  The regret Ishwari showed in her face was honest and that honesty was the need of the hour. Last week, talking about how Ishwari's equation changed with everyone post the Khatri incident, we did not talk about Sona. This week started off with this change in equation between these two leading ladies of our show

"Whenever you did something good for the family, I always mistook it as if you are pointing out my incapability.. I mistook your strength, faith and dedication as ego. I failed to acknowledge that you will give respect to others without a hesitation, but will not tolerate if others challenge your self respect.  I looked at you as my competition.." - These words pretty much summarized Ishwari's mindset 7 years ago.  "You don't have to apologize aunty ji. None of us were ready for the relationship at that time.. I am glad that we are opening up now, we can start our relationship from here!" - This somewhat gave a closure to Dev's unsatisfied wish of "his mom and wife to be on the same page.."

7 years ago, Sona and Ishwari had a similar very warm conversation.. But at that time, Ishwari's main focus was to make Sonakshi feel good..because she had given Ishwari, the happiness of becoming a grandmother. I vividly remember how Ishwari praised Sonakshi for all the good things she did for the Dixit family. However, now, her main focus was highlighting her own mistakes and repenting for it.. When we are able to accept our mistakes to someone, then it means that we consider "that someone" as our own.. and have given a that person, a special place in our heart. The changed equation between Sona and Ishwari is this - Ishwari has given Sonakshi a place in her heart ❤️. This has nothing to do with a child or making Dev happy. The reason for this change is only that Ishwari is not intimidated by Sonakshi or her perfection anymore. Ishwari now feels secure and Sona's presence or absence does not control it.

They say, a happy home is filled with Love and Laughter. That night, Ishwari Niwas became a happy home with genuine love and laughter - Thanks to Dev's perseverance to embrace Sonakshi and her family with love and gratitude, to somehow reduce the distance between the two families.. to somehow fill his daughter's childhood with fond and beautiful memories and not with pain like his own.

That night, as the satisfied Dev and Sona went on with their lives, a new phase was planned for them by Ishwari - A phase in which she will orchestrate a game between their head and heart. I really liked that part where she looked at their wedding album, realizing the pain of Sonakshi and Dev. She was able to see that Sonakshi has stopped listening to her heart completely as Dev broke it to pieces 7 years ago. Ishwari was also able to acknowledge the fear that Sonakshi now has, to even accept that she has a heart that has some wishes too. And Ishwari finally, was able to see the pain of Dev as a "Lover" who loves Sonakshi deeply, but just holding his love within his heart, because he was scared of Sona's fears. And with this realization, she was determined to bring them together at any cost. 💖💕❤️

The following day, I thought that Dev will resume work.. After all the Khatri drama and dinner..I thought Ishwari communications will also need some attention..But he disappointed me 😏.. in fact later in the week when Ishwari asked Dev if he can take off from work, I was literally.. 😂 May be being a boss, work will wait for him.. But Sonakshi was back to work! Girls are always sincere and a step ahead than their male counterparts! Probably thats why... Ishwari gave Sonakshi the responsibility of finding a suitable bride for Dev!

Sonakshi loves Dev. There is no doubt in our heart about that. In fact, she also knows it very clearly. But she cannot accept it. I tried calling this stubbornness as "ego". But somehow "Ego" seems a very harsh word to use on Dev or Sonakshi. It just doesn't suit them. Neither Dev nor Sona will be able to walk away when they know that one of them is in pain. Then how can we call it Ego? When Ishwari asked her to find a match for Dev, she immediately withdrew because her heart heard it first.. But then, her head jumped right in and told her heart that "All is well.. you go back to sleep. You are still sick. Let me handle this". Well... atleast her heart is not dead.. it can be revived soon, with proper care 💝

Dev loves Sonakshi. We have no doubt in this. He has no doubt in this and he has no problem in accepting this as well. However, he has promised Sona that he will never express this in a conscious or unconscious state, as it disturbs her. But when he was cornered with a marriage proposal by his mom, Sona and even his daughter.. what could he do? He was just devastated and lost in a world of no answers. The state of his heart was pretty bad and his head did not have any power left to think.

The conversation between Dev and Sonakshi, following Ishwari's master plan was one of the highlights this week. Sonakshi's "I am a strong girl" image became very transparent to Dev but yet he did not have the guts to go through it to reach her heart only for the fear of hurting it again. And therefore, he pretended to acknowledge Sonakshi's advice for getting married again. Some of the subtle dialogues were very soothing for the DevAkshi well-wishers.. 
Sona:  "Dev, tum itna selfish math bano..Maa ke bare mein socho"
Dev: "Tumhare baare mein kaun sochega?" ❤️😭

Dev: "Mein yeh sab nahi karne wala hoon"
Sona: "Kyoon?"
Dev: "Kyonki, mein woh jagah kisi aur ko nahi de saktha hoon..jo tume diya tha.." 😭

All of these dialogues, tell us, how Dev tried to gently get into her heart.. only to be repelled by the fear of goofing up again.. A very well made scene 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 Dev then accepted for the proposal and asked Sonakshi to promise that she will stay with him until the time he takes his wedding vows and then go away and never ever look back at him - At this point, the reality probably struck Sonakshi. All this while Dev and Sona have been piggybacking on Suhana, saying whatever they do, they do for her. But now, Suhana would like to see her dad married as well!! They don't have anywhere to hide and had to face this situation on their own as a couple or ex-couple.

For a while, I was wondering why a small child was made part of this game. Then I remembered an event that happened a couple of days ago for me. In the library that I volunteer for, a little 3rd grader came upto me and asked me if she can renew her book without having the actual book with her. It was the first time, that I am coming across a situation like that, so I called the librarian to help me with that in the computerized system. The girl, while she was waiting, in her anxiety of not being able to bring the book that day, told us "See.. my parents just got divorced. I am with my grandparents.. the book is in my mom's house and she is away on a business trip.. I cant get this until next week... is it ok?" - These words are from a 3rd grader really shocked and saddened me... Kids these days, have to face it! Its a cruel world out there. So, Suhana being part of it... does not surprise me anymore after remembering what happened in the library.. (by the way, we got that book renewed for her without a problem.)

Children come into this world with dreams of their own... who are we to destroy it? The parents probably had a very justified reason to get a divorce.. but whatever it was, either they should have worked it out or never went for a child, when they are unsure of their relationship... In a way, I am glad that Suhana at least did what she did with adult supervision (I mean her grandma..) and was told later that a lie is a lie and we need to confess to God. 🙏🏼🙏🏼

Sonakshi burdened her mind with the reality of losing Dev. This strong girl has only one person, with whom she can pour her heart out - her mother. But in this case, she cannot open up even to Asha, because, 7 years ago, she buried all her real feelings deep inside her heart and built a fort of strength around it, through which nothing can penetrate. If she brought those feelings outside, then all that she built these past 7 years for herself and her family, will come crashing down. She knew that she cannot afford it and if she let it happen, it will become difficult for her to survive that storm.

Dev has a lifetime access to her heart, but even he cannot do anything to the strong fort she has built, after what happened 7 years ago.😢 He attempted though.. His call to Sonakshi to confirm the plan of going ahead with his marriage was one final attempt! His stiffness and her cool attitude were both  masked emotions. They both know that, but were too stubborn and scared to accept it. Their conversation on phone that night was a classic example of the conversation between their head and heart. Dev's questions were as if their heart spoke and Sonakshi's answers were as if the head spoke. ❤️👤 Head decided "No looking back".. Heart followed the head cluelessly...

Usually, Dev is an open book. But this time, he was not. Time has taught him to conceal his heart. The person, who is used to thinking only with his heart, was left clueless in this situation. He was not getting any answers from his heart. A similar situation happened many years ago, when Sona was about to marry Ritvik... But at that time, Dev had the guts to confront the situation and his free pass to Sona's heart was still valid. But now, all his doors were closed. I felt very sad for Dev as he flipped through the album of girls lined up for him to get married to...😢😢

Mothers know the pain of their children however old their kids get. Asha was a very intuitive mother, from the beginning. And has always been there for Sonakshi, in whatever her decision was. She was quick in acknowledging Sonakshi's pain, but was unable to heal it as Sonakshi was determined to live in pain. But this time, Ishwari had opened the door for the Bose family.. So Asha, unlike the previous times, was able to talk to Ishwari. It was a very emotionally draining scene, because Asha gave Ishwari a sneak peek into Sonakshi's heart and the pain she had been enduring for the last 7 years. Asha, in simple words, said "Sona used to safeguard all of Dev's newspaper articles  and used to cry secretly whenever she saw Suhana.." But those simple words made me cry for Sonakshi...😢 Am sure the makers are quite skilled in getting into our hearts with simple yet profound dialogues and screenplay 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 Now that Asha is also in team Ishwari, I am positive that GKB cannot do much. Bijoy cannot do much as well, even if he tried to get God on his side!

But in a twist of tale, Ishwari and all of us were surprised when Ishwari's plan backfired and Dev said yes to moving on and marrying someone else.. However, knowing Dev for the last 300 plus episodes, I was sure he had a plan in mind. Because of this confidence that I had in Dev, the scenes that came later on were quite enjoyable and funny 😄

With the New/Old avatar, Devrath Dixit was ready to sweep Sonakshi off the floors one more time!!  ❤️😍 We were all swept away as well 😍😍 
Dev: "Good morning! Ms.Bose"
Sona: "Thank you.. I mean...Same to you.. uhh....Good morning" 
Reminded me of the time she told him "Mein biceps hoon..Aap Hot hai?" 😄❤️😍

Not just that, the entire meeting of Payal was quite enjoyable! It reminded me of the date with Natasha when Sonakshi was sitting with overwhelming jealousy!!  Except, this time Dev was purposely doing it :) There was even a scene of Payal touching Dev's hands like Natasha!! And Sonakshi fuming inside just like before!! 😂😂😂 Well.. I told myself, "No looking back" 😒

In a single date, Dev even finalized the girl!! But somehow Payal Dixit doesn't sound good.. So, she is rejected from my side. Apparently, Sonakshi and Ishwari are pretty confused with this quick decision!! Hmmm...

Some of the other lovely scenes tihis week:

1. Ishwari and mami's discussion over the photographs mami brought - it was so lovely to hear Ishwari explaining to mami about Dev's unmatched and irreplaceable love for Sonakshi!! 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👌🏻👌🏻

2. Soha and Golu's talk about new Big chi and Ex Big chi. Suhana knew the plan and Golu did not. So, Golu was trying be supportive to Suhana.. and this big brother's promise to his little sister was the cutest scene this week 😘😘

3. The discussion over Ballet dance and stacks was pretty hilarious! 😄😂 

4. Shaheer and Erica have excellent chemistry - whether in comedy or romance or tiffs. Every scene they come together lights up the screen. I specifically enjoyed their conversation near the bike and also the restaurant sequence! 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👌🏻👌🏻❤️

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The worst battle that all of us have to fight is between what we know and what we feel. Lets wait and watch how Ishwari makes Dev and Sona's heart to talk to each other..😊