Saturday, December 31, 2016

Week 44 - The Disillusionment

Everything is an Illusion. Happiness, Sadness.. everything... Only Emptiness is real.  This is what we realize in the end, after going through our entire life that is full of ups and downs. All through our life, we work very hard to be successful, to have a family of our own, to earn for them, to keep them happy and to see them succeed in life. And throughout this journey of life, we discover ourselves at every step and also discover that everything we have created around us is only an illusion. We realize that in the end, only Love and Forgiveness never fade. Everything else has faded and gone. This is the Philosophy of life. But, don't worry, I will not bore you with a lecture on Philosophy πŸ˜„!

Our very dear Dev had to undergo a lot of desolation this week. Not just him, slowly the illusion that he had created for his dear wife and mother also cleared and created a big hollow.. Remember how we all felt after the breakup?? This is a much worser feeling than that πŸ˜’πŸ˜’

The week started off with our Dev in a stylish vest and suit. There was something different about him that day and he looked very dignified and handsome πŸ˜πŸ˜

Although Dev had a feeling of contentment over the bond that had blossomed between his mom and Sona, we all knew what was eventually coming up that day, as we had seen the precap. I did not particularly like the Laddu scene as I don't believe in superstitions like that. However, I strongly believe in inner voice and intuitions and therefore I could very easily relate to Ishwari's anxiety.

Dev needs to really buy an apartment for Maami and company and pack them off. She is being too nosy in all family matters. And really Neha needs to get back her life. While being on the topic of people wasting their life... Is Vicky going to work? Is Eleena going to college?  I tried to distract myself from the reality of pregnancy by pondering on these topics.. However very soon, kakimaa gave the judgement that Sonakshi is not pregnant πŸ˜²

To become a mother is a dream that every woman holds dearly, from the time she starts to admire her own mother. And we all somehow think these things will eventually happen very naturally. We never prepare ourselves for it or for a situation in case it does not happen. The biggest agony in a woman's life is when she finds out she is not pregnant, especially after looking forward to it. I truly felt bad for Sona that day, as she found out the truth πŸ˜’

If disappointment gives sorrow, betrayal gives pain.. Betrayal is probably too much of a word for a kind hearted person like Dev. However, when Sona first found out that her true report was hidden from her by Dev, I can understand the pain she must have gone through...And the Bose family's initial anger was also understandable. I told myself that very soon Sonakshi and her family will realize that he was being protective of her..not betray her.

I had goosebumps that day, watching Dev struggling to overcome his fear of losing Sonakshi. The way he hugged his dear wife tightly and refused to let go of her and plead with her to try to understand him was by far, Shaheer's best performance till date. I keep telling this every time he touches our heart with his acting. He just outperforms his own earlier performances. To him, he himself is a competition and he constantly proves to us that watching him onscreen is the best part of our day! Take a bow, Shaheer! You are the best actor πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»❤️😍

Erica also supported her coactor very aptly and her emotions of disappointment and pain was bang on.  This jodi is indeed the best jodi - congratulations on the awardπŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ» What I like about this couple (apart from the chemistry that we all go crazy about), is the way they both dwell in their characters with "conviction". Dev has his own shades of grey. And we have seen and talked about this side of him a lot. Sonakshi also has some weaknesses. We haven't really spoken much about it. And this is probably a good time to see that.

Sonakshi's strength is actually her weakness. Being vulnerable to situations and people usually defines our true personality.  Acting stronger than you are, doesn't really make you a stronger person. By the end of Thursday's episode, I somehow felt Sonakshi was trying to be stronger than she actually is. I felt she really needs to use her dear Dev's shoulders to vent the grief. 

Inability to conceive is not just a pain for a woman, its a pain for the couple and the couple need each other's support and shoulders to heal together. Unless she leans on him, he will be unable to lean on her to express his sorrow. The last thing that a real husband will do in a sutuation like this is to express his unhappiness on this matter lest it might affect his dear wife..So its upto the wife to make him express. And I somehow felt, Sonakshi's so called "strength" happens to be her weakness in this situation. 

Her other weakness is to always keep her mother in law above her own life. Sona's constant attempts to be in Ishwari's good books will not actually take her there. The process is a two-way process and Sona's attempts will be futile, without conscious effort from the other side and its about time, Sonakshi realizes this truth and gives more importance to strengthening her relationship with Dev. The Thursday's episode got me into a thinking mode. I felt, she understood him better prior to their marriage. Somehow after their marriage, her energy is all used in making Ishwari happy.

And come on, everyone keeps saying "Dev said lie" and no one even attempts to investigate why he might have told that lie.. By thursday evening, I was totally angry with all the cast of the show except  my Dev Dixit.

And in all these complications,  a third person's presence like that of mami's, really brings in a very unpleasant feeling. The way she instigated Ishwari was very very nasty. Even though that scene was a very TV serial type scene, its pretty common in real life that a third person is the one who is contentious. I hope we soon get to see a fitting reply to mami's nosy behavior and conversations.

But thank God, friday came after thursday.  All my questions resolved on its own and all my disappointments found a channel to drain πŸ˜„πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»

If tuesday's episode was fantastic, then I would call friday's as fantabulous!! Asha is a role model for all moms of daughters. Any daughter who has a mother like Asha can just relax and completely be confident of a true, strong and sincere support and guidance.

Asha spoke all that was in my mind and defended Dev. Finally there was someone to understand him in the purest way that he was... She was right. Sonakshi cannot have anyone else but Dev as her companion for life. Now I also know the other quiet favors of Dev to Saurabh...He is indeed a gem πŸ˜Š

I sometimes wonder if Ishwari claims that her bond with her son is strong, why she is not able to openly talk to him πŸ€”πŸ€”. Even at this pressing situation, even when she knew that her son was undergoing the pain of not being able to have his own child, even when her darling son seeks her lap for comfort, she expects him to open up to her. Her love is very conditional and selfish, I felt. Her love for him constantly only tries to enslave him. But thank goodness, now, Dev is as much a loving husband as a caring son that he is. Even if the world now turns against Sonakshi, he will surely stand by her!

Of all the things I was longing for, I really wanted to see the couple grieve the unfortunate state of Sonakshi's inability to conceive. Because, the grief really can only be felt by them, and no-one else. It was very heartening to see Dev and Sona cry their heart out together and hold on to each other. It was comforting to hear Dev's reassurance to Sonakshi that he really does not need any kids and that only "she" can complete him.. Dev's dialogue on "Time" and that "This will also pass" was profound πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ» . I don't know what was magical in those 2 or 3 mins.. May be the magic of Shaheer's eyes that was full of sorrow and despair, may be the pain that came out so vividly in Erica's face, may be the background music, may be the quietness of the scene without dialogues - whatever it was, the cast and the crew conveyed the exact emotions and gave us the warmth of their togetherness in those 3 mins πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»❤️πŸ˜„πŸ˜

The illusion of Sonakshi's pregnancy is gone now. But from one illusion, Ishwari has moved on to another illusion. She thinks Sonakshi knew all about this even before marriage and that she hid the truth on purpose and that she tames Dev to listen to her. My hope is that Ishwari will soon realize that Sona is really a "Sona" (Gold).

As the week and the last episode for the year 2016 ended, Ishwari was missing from Ishwari Nivas. Everyone was in search of her. They all seem to be assembling in the temple. I somehow had a positive feeling about it. We are going to start the New year at the temple on monday πŸ˜ I am a person who believes in Miracles and so I am holding on to the 7% chance of pregnancy for Sona. I am also holding on to the sign that God gave to Dev when he tried to take away the idol from the temple at home. It seemed to me that God told him.. "Not so soon, Son. Give me some time, I have got a better plan for you, than the one you have made for yourself πŸ˜Š

Keep smiling πŸ˜Š. Happy New year!


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  2. "Unless she leans on him, he will be unable to lean on her to express his sorrow" So true. I hope that Dev vents out all her feelings to Sonakshi. I really want Sona to understand and feel the pain Dev was going through. ☺

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